Tag: names

namae

Just a a brief additional notice, more on my namesake analyzed here, to elaborate on the dimensions of agency and coping and navigating that my last post mentioned.

https://jowritesstuff.wordpress.com/2015/05/30/strong-female-characters-sophie-hatter/

As stated, did not conciously think of this as a trans story then, but looking back, the thought of being on some level a woman placed in a body not your own where others will not recognize you, then doing the best you can going forward, that resonates with me.

Also the power of her own unique witchery, eventually developed, resonates with me.

conventional

At my first non-games oriented convention. Did Vulcan femme cosplay with a dear cisfemale friend, interesting and precious (and we looked good) though I do worry in context people will somehow believe I am crossplaying, which begins to matter more that they do not.

Similarly was freaking out with blanked wavy shock/sadness (sudden onset dysphoria?) with my nametag having my deadname. They were nice about changing it though, and it feels good to have/grow the normalcy of participating unquestioned as female.

Then running out of clothes because unprepared, and now experimenting with long tops over short skirts. Concerned with the resulting squareness, and the smallness of my bust when not wearing that one really flattering bra, but this is in a sense an experience I must share at some point with every woman. Moving through it.

In other notes, doing science and drinking overpriced wheat beer.