For many years before acknowledging I was trans I had word triggers. Using any male coded word for myself would feel very very painful and I avoided it, including terms for anatomy. That is still there. I was always fine using them for others. This does mean now I have challenges talking about my body because I lack words to use, I need to claim versions of the female ones. Also, notable that I had this type of linguistic dysphoria and still did not consider myself trans enough to transition. And really, the last years before, I think it was like that – I recognized as I met trans people that I could fall within that spectrum, but felt that I didn’t have to because it wasn’t bad enough. Eventually that changed. Interesting to note, in regards to whether there were signs or not.