Content warning: Weight and weight loss issues. What I want for myself, and to what end, is not reflective of how I see or assess or perceive others.

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Feeling a weird clarity. It’s strong, and emotional, but neither a pain nor a pleasure, nor a drive. Just a path, a fact, a trajectory. Once I manage to set aside the money, and once I get the appropriate hair cleared out, and once I lose another 15kg or so from my current state, then I can start trying to schedule SRS. This is there. It feels comforting, it feels secure, like something I can cling to. Largely a positive emotion.

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EDIT: Noting that it says something about me that I CW weight loss references and not gruesome genital surgery references. C’est la vie!

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This is not a definite decision, per se. Just a trajectory.