Feeling the long day. Mother used the right name once, then the wrong name a few times, but she did use it, and really this was the first time I heard her speak those syllables to me. This is undoubtedly a step forward. Many left to go, but still there.

Felt the headache from the weather, I remain a weather witch whose head hurts when rain must fall. Noted very strongly now anxieties mounting as I approached the 12-hour mark from my estrogen pill. Had to get home to get the next one (mixed it up with caffeine and ibuprofen too) and all these things helped.

Tried to clean and furnish but it got too much in candlelight and darkness. More tomorrow is coming. Now finding myself listening to another youtube lecture by an very accomplished (trans) woman in a field adjacent to mine: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QSOWxndRdas ; I had the fortune to meet her earlier and I think I may even have tumbld about it; like seeing who I might be ten years from now, the sort of thing we use big sisters for. I guess we all need role models.