SO MUCH TMI but I think I actually have some sort of scrotal yeast infection. In the area that is most densely tucked, which is also the area that has visible changes to skin pigmentation and texture. While it stings, it is also weirdly validating if so.

Also on the SRS matter. I was holding back when I started transition because I felt very strongly, I would never have SRS unless I am, well, not necessarily cis-passing, but looking like a cis woman with a few tells.

Whether I am or not, I’m realizing that at some point in the last year, I’ve started to think of myself so. I no longer feel a risk of perceived dissonance between genitals and rest of body. I feel that post-op me would be perceived as wholly and fully a trans woman to most.

This probably also impacts why I’m moving like this. I don’t always feel right like that, but it feels like the exception when I am not. And that means that not only do my genitals stand out stronger, but it means that perhaps strong fear I had of being a parody (the inverse dickgirl fear), that has dissipated, leaving me less worried.