Writing from my other address worked, Suporn clinic got back to me.
I’ll start the process of scheduling SRS with them in the next days.
Seeing the message cleared a lot of the anxiety I had the last few days and kept me fuzzy and warm despite the insane stress right now (two grant proposals, one student thesis, three really major papers, one minor paper, home refurbishment).
Of course I’ll stay anxious and on edge until the moment I go under, I wake up, I am all healed. But that I can move through.
Once there is a date, I will have a deadline. Need body and voice and names and life context and family prepared by then. It will require some work. I will perform that work.
Another dear person (first Avatar of Chaos, my sibling-by-soul) also offered to come. That gets my list of preferred companions to three extremely transformatory, hard-to-pin-down, magical queer loved ones who each impacted me. We’ll see what happens.
lost in transition 