thing

I did a really minor thing today which was scary, and that is relevant.

A distant friend polled for interest online in a woman-only event, not specifying further. I know she considers trans women included in no-label women, but I still was scared to assent without adding my usual “yes, if that includes trans women” caveat. I did so anyway. It took resolving and I was shaky thereafter.

Which is meaningful because it is a positioning that I’d expect to be welcome, and facing a fear that I would not, or that – more importantly, really – I’d come across as an intruder.

That is to say, this was a first step towards dismantling that intrusion fear.

Which is also a first step towards dismantling impostor syndrome.

So much encompassed in a single “yes”.