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So, I seem to be in one of those modes/moods where things seem difficult and heavy and scary. It also makes me more dysphoric (“what if I was just fooled into wanting to be an anime character like Blanchard says?”) and prone to worry for practical matter (“how will I charge my phone if…”). It’s not quite the same as the PMS modes because things don’t feel tiring in the same way and I don’t feel angry, I just seem to have fear amplified. I do believe it was like this first day of Lenzetto spray, and it seemed like this on low dosages (whereas the PMS state emerged on high dosage at some point). And I just changed estrogen dosing scheme and added progesterone. So possibly there are at least two components to modes of this type and they may reflect either doses being too low (worry) or fluctuating/high (irritability/thin-skinned-ness/weariness). Well, we’ll see. I continue to observe.