For whatever reasons (conceivable local ones involving stress, scares and hormone dosages going from low to high on microscale), I am emotional today. Emotions persist and storm inside my body. Stressors cause waves like when shaking a rickety bathtub. Noting volatility-for-whatever-reason, noting tendency/risk to go panicworryworryworry over every impulse, trying instead to stay focused. It works somewhat.
On another level, continuing to tuck. It’s not that it feels very special on a level I access, but that somehow not having its reshaping in place feels wrong. This seems consistent with a reduction in subtle and masked body dysphoria. Imagine having the proper anatomy. I do want that. I guess I will have it.
lost in transition 