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So, some various things – book and standup poem having some implicitly trans identity denying undertones, each time leaving me with some dysphoria. Same with assholish person in FB thread being all reproductive essentialist. Common takeaway: I have become more vulnerable, in the sense that erasure of my identity causes a dysphoria surge in me. I am fine with this, but wanted to note it is there. I have gained some vulnerabilities, and my slowly growing closeness to the actual affects of my emotions (through their bodily feedback), that also underscores and strengthens it. Not a problem, just life, and interesting.

Also wondering if person without known science qualifications not getting my point and referring to “Science“ in said FB thread amounts to something like mansplaining? Because I would feel so validated if it did. I guess not really, but no fear! Surely, one day I too will be clearly belittled and ignored by men less qualified than me. The sad sad part is I really do crave this because it will make me feel more like a woman, just as street harassment does…