trifecta

I think I can conclude a few more things on emotions, a few more HRT related things trending now significance. Some were visible today so I noticed.

Four months in, I have mood spells lasting a few hours. Sometimes vulnerable/raw/melancholic/sad, like feeling emotionally bruised, more often being irritable/angry. Perhaps once or twice a month? No pattern to them, and nothing external triggering. I can wake up like this, or it comes slowly online. Like I am on a hair trigger and easily irritated, growling, impatient, angry. I can and do ignore it. But it’s there, rarely, and I think it’s new.

Another set are times when I am just huggy and needy, wanting to be held and comforted, and it feels very much like I need it. I note that while libido is down, there is a strong physical reaction of a different kind sometimes when sensuality rises. I can get weak-kneed from being kissed, which lasts for minutes and makes me more cuddly, but without me really wanting to escalate or even to maintain, just feeling dizzy from the pleasure of the nearness.

Then I think also I end up more tired at night. Some is getting up earlier, some perhaps a changing body needing more sleep, and some may be S no longer holding back, so that she lives more fully without noticing tiredness until it is quite high, or rather, not getting emotionally tired before cognitively or somatically tired.

Thinking these may indeed be filed under mental effects of my HRT. Other things happening, many good. Moving forward.