emo

I keep hoping my HRT will make me more emotionally alive, as some have reported. It may or may not be something that comes later. So far, since starting it, baseline volatility is if anything lower, and absolute amplitude may not be significantly different. However, it may be possible (trending significance) that my ability to shut down emotions on the mid-level time scale is lessening, emotions stay longer despite me not actively maintaining them. Seemed tonight like I was staying angry and/or sad despite realizing also emotionally that it was not constructive. This might be a change. More data needed.