gears

Very very very stressful day with all things happening at once, and more things needing to have happened already. Will get those things done. Back from therapy, moving hopefully forward. Being asked things to rule out other states. Hoping no problems or difficulties will arise insofar as demonstrating my disconnect has been present persistently over time. But will worry about all such things later.

Went with precious friend to do clothes shopping, as old trousers no longer fit even with the most ambitious of belting. Got some woman-cut black jeans and absolutely loving the experience of clothes that fit. Buttoning from the opposite side than what I expected. Feeling silly for being so happy over something so shallow and trivial, but at the same time, euphoric over knowing I currently wear no article of clothing intended for men. Very much wanting it to stay that way.

Cooking pumpkin risotto and making figures, anticipating the arrival of a beloved partner. Slowly regaining more and more of a feeling of control.