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Visible bra straps at least appears to be a reliable way to get to be security checked female, from latest observations. Otherwise, lots of “sir”:ing. Very well, this is how it currently is like. Came to understand somehow that my presently feeling quite well, seems to be mechanistically driven to some extent by having come to start actually see myself as female, in how I understand various situations and interactions, helped by external cues and by the actions of others, and so on. The flip side is that this also means expecting the associated cues to be present. A few months ago I could just ignore the hair on my arms or belly, for example, or ignore the symbolism and labeling of using a male-coded facility. Now I am coming to feel those things, because expectations build, and this is intrinsically linked to the strategy for greater safety and calmness I am building up by adjusting my alignment. I am curious on where it will go. I hope to be as brave as I want. I know I can be.

New laser appointment next week, eager for that. In a few more sessions, then perhaps I might even begin to pass some (problematic as though the term is blah blah)?