Just noticed while shaving that now, a few weeks post first laser session, there are actual regions on my cheeks – like tiger stripes, sort of – where there currently is no stubble. Assuming there will be new follicle cycles blooming back there, but eventually there will be none. There is actual progress. This might actually work. I might actually become able to see my face clearly. Tears in my eyes at the thought.
Then again, perhaps I’m just latching onto some narrative that makes my drab life seem meaningful, thus doing symptom management of some other state. But really, I feel happy every day when thinking I am another day closer to next laser appointment. That might, just might, be a sign that I don’t need to overthink this quite so much. Giddy with happiness at the thought. 🙂
lost in transition 