read me first?

This is an anonymous blog for random, throwaway thoughts and experiences and reflections related to my gender questioning and possible trans identity. Not only is it deeply personal, but I am not applying my regular standards here; I will let myself post emotional shit without making sure they are representative of the full state of my views and mind and perspective. This is important, and I want you to know that; if one post paints a skewed and weird picture of me, please know it might not be representative of the whole. Here I want to shut out the need to be thus representative.

It further may be triggering in all sorts of ways, and I am not making my regular efforts to avoid this, necessarily. It may further distinctly underrepresenting very valid perspectives and experiences of transmasculine and nonbinary trans people, in case my questioning is myopic. It is narcissistic and self-absorbed. I write it perhaps for my own sake but also because I sometimes want to communicate what I am going through to friends and loved ones which I would trust with this skewed, potentially unrepresentative rawness.

Feel free to repost, link and share. I won’t read your comments, I am not here to debate or discuss or do any sort of two-way communication. If we actually are friends and you know who I am, you know how to contact me, and then we can talk about things we write. If you do, please do not share my identity with others. Perhaps in the future I will own these writings in my public self, but not yet. If you want to let someone else know who I am, then ask me first every time.